Today has just been one of those days.
No matter what I did, it didn’t seem good enough. In fact, I am drafting this in Pages because I have doubts that it’ll even actually make the Happy Fool.
I am not sure if it is lack of sleep, lack of focus, lack of drive (although I don’t think that is it), lack of energy, or some wicked combination of all the above, but nothing that got written today felt like it was any good.
I am working on two or three things that I hope to post here, at least at some point, and maybe continue to fiddle with them and get them somewhere else. But it wasn’t happening today.
I mean I have basically all week off to get stuff done, and I am getting none of it done. I was even thwarted in getting my VA driver’s license (I don’t have something that I need. Requested, but how long will it take?). I was hoping for a real burst of productivity this week, get a lot of stuff in the bag. But it seems that if anything I am less productive than I have been.
I don’t think that it is my nasty little perfectionist side coming out. I don’t think that I am being unreasonable with myself and my expectations. But maybe I am. I was reminded today that I can be pretty hard on myself.
But not all was lost, though. There were two things that have sort of salvaged the day. The first is that a friend from undergrad has started a new project: The Millennial Empowerment Project. There is a lot of promise in it. The idea is to be “a blog and online resource dedicated to Millennials (or Generation Y), we 18-30-year-olds attempting to make sense of, and discern our identity and place within, a tremendously chaotic, ever-evolving world.” Rick, the founder of this little idea (and it is JUST getting off the ground), has asked me to come on board as a religion/faith voice, which is just exciting.
The second thing happened first thing this morning. Peter Rollins was giving Jay Bakker a hard time over twitter for the special breed of crazy that can be released any timed Jay’s name is said. I tweeted at Rollins, who responded. And Bakker retweeted me. If you understand what a theo-nerd I am, this is huge. Makes me think that I might actually have something to say, even if it is only 140 characters!
Well I think that is about it for me today. I think that I am just going to curl up with a nice fluffy book and zone out for the rest of the night. Hopefully I will be back to 100% tomorrow and knock a bunch of stuff out that I want to get done.
Which reminds me, Ι am going to start a series of posts where I walk through various theological type books. Not sure what it is going to look like yet, but I thought that the exercise might help me (a) keep all my thoughts in order and (b) keep certain writing chops up for my (eventual) return to grad school. Well the first book I am going to leave up to you. I know that these are two books that have been out for a while, but I am just getting to them. Would you prefer that I start with Insurrection by Peter Rollins or The Wisdom of Stability by Jonathan Wilson-Hartgrove? Never fear, dear readers, both will be done, but which would you like to see done first?